Monday, May 10, 2010
After Physics exam today, I officially feel that summer is approaching. =]
I promise there will be nothing more about the exams in this post. But it's all just gonna be some random stuff. (If you don't want to read about all the things I've got to do plz skip the next paragraph.)
So this past weekend I just realized how much fun this summer is gonna be. (Although I knew what I was gonna do anyway from a long time ago, but surprisingly, the idea of having a good time over the summer just stroke me on a Sunday morning when I was cramming Physics. Hehe. I'm weird.) I'll go to Seattle to visit my brother and his awesome girlfriend (I love her =]]); then I'll be NOT in greenville for the entire July because first I'll go visit the Ivy Leagues + work/volunteer/be at this cancer research center in Boston, then I'll go to GMIF again for speech and debate (plus I'm staying to extension this year :DDD); and then after all of this craziness + awesomeness, I'll be at SHS and help the speech and debate novices for the rest of the summer. =]] Another thing that I won't leave out is that I WILL HANG W/ MAH BUDZ. :PP I love them!! I'm pretty sure I'll go to movies (lol although there isn't a lot of good ones coming out I think). And some non-azn ppl (intense racism right here! jk) will come over and eat chinese food. Plus, I will get to hang with some other cool people that I usually don't get to hang with ;)). :PP My life will be complete after this summer!
Alright. If you are interested in my opinion about things so here we go.
For seniors trip next year, I think we all should go to Harry Potter theme park. :DDD And I will NOT miss the Harry Potter 7 Part II premiere...I F$%^$%^ SWEAR!!
So I ran for chair again this year but I didn't win again. Well I mean turned out I didn't want it as bad as last year. (There, again, it's weird.) I think I have the right approach to my failure now although I really don't consider it a fail. (I'm not trying to cover up like..."how sad I am right now" or "well i should've gotten elected instead of that SOB/bitch [lmao have to do the slash thing because there are both guys/gurls running hahahahhaha]" for not getting elected. Because I am truly not sad and unhappy! I will state my thoughts below. I just want to share some thoughts of mine and please feel free to comment if you have any opinion about this.) and now when I think about it, I really want to say that I actually didn't really want the position. I'm glad the people who ran against me got elected because they really wanted it. When I think about it, my reason behind all this can be summarized in two points: I don't think I am "ready" and there are many more people who can do better at this than me.
To say that I wasn't "ready", first of all I think me as a foreigner who doesn't speak English as well as most of the other members cannot possibly help others that much in public speaking. I mean really. When I tried to help others in the past year as a varsity member, I felt that I wasn't able to help as much. Just imagine, you need to help someone who speaks Chinese with their Chinese! :P It's hard and I feel bad for myself when I can't help. Especially if I were an officer, I would feel worse. Because as an officer, you are obligated to help others even when sometimes you don't feel like doing so....and that happens to me a lot! To be honest, I didn't think I worked very hard in the past year comparing to some friends of mine. I never practiced before the day before the tournament. I think it's because that I had this mindset of doing well since I went to camp. And when I say I'm gonna edit my oratory, I actually don't do it. To tell you the truth, I never did in the past year. I am someone who regret many things but then don't regret it after a while. I would say I should've practiced more so I would do better! But then after a while, I just go...screw practice, I am too lazy. I acknowledge my laziness and I always don't feel like changing this. It's really sad isn't it? (Btw, if priya/steph is reading, I SWEAR I WILL DO MY COLLEGE APP OVER THE SUMMER!!!) So I don't think I would be the right person to do this anyway. I do things according to my feeling. I don't do it when I don't like it. So now I think I will be able to actually help more as a free varsity member than a team officer. =]
Secondly, there are more people that want this more than I do. Many of them are very well qualified. I mean, you don't have to be a super good forensicator to be an officer. But you have to have the time and the nerves to be one. I don't think I will be able to spend a lot of time on this next year. (Although I will try my best to attend all tournaments and PRACTICE before them.) But I don't think I will have a lot of time to do what extra work an officer needs to do. Again, I am 'foreign' (lol love this word) and I have to spend more time on anything - either reading biology, working on college app, memorizing psych, or studying for the SAT. I say that I can't be Gary Fan and overwork myself. But I am happy with the gifts I was born with so I don't have to live a hard life just because of not being able to understand the language. I can say that I'm pretty good at languages but not good ENOUGH. Many other people are. Plus if this was happening in China, I would feel mentally unbalanced if someone foreign got elected as an officer. >.> In the end, all the officers are good for the team, not their college app (I hope this is how they think about it). If I can't do it, I won't do it. Now I regret turning in my application for an officer...>.<
Last thing for this forensics business: I am really really REALLY happy that my friends got elected. :)
Third thing I want to talk about is about people. I am loving my friends more and more. High school friends are truly friends FOR LIFE! I believe I will still remember all these people after like...30 years. So Steph don't feel surprised if I randomly show up at your future house with my future husband and children. :P (creeper!) But I just want to say I LOVE all these people. I would kiss every single one of them when I graduate (if people don't think I'm homo). LOVE LOVE LOVE. Oh, I love you boys too! :D ;) I personally think boys are extremely fun to talk to. It's so FUN to like...talk to someone who you don't know what kind of answer they are gonna give you to your question. It's like talking to a different kind of people. Haha. I love everyone who can be truthful to me and fun. =]] To me, although there aren't a lot of people that I would count as "friends", but one standard of being a "friend" is that we can share things that other people don't know about us (or...secrets lol). However although I don't think anyone hates me, but there are people that know me more than others. I love everyone who is nice to me. But to be a true "friend", I think you have to do something more significant for them. And I still feel sorry for the people that I don't love as much though. I want to but I can't. :P Lol oh well those last two sentences didn't make sense...= =
Alright. Will this be the longest post I've ever posted? :DLabels: forensics, friends, personal
Friday, March 5, 2010
Today was a great day!!!
Congrats to my dear Angie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D U R DA BEST!!
We went to states this afternoon/evening at Hillcrest. I thought I did decent in all three rounds. Although everyone else was getting so much better than before, but I always see their problems. (lol I will be a super awesome amazing judge when I graduate hahaha. :P) I am so pumped for tomorrow. I am gonna finish my two other prelim rounds, then semis, and I will go to finals. =]
Some funny moments today XD
Me: This school is so ghetto.
Me: Why is Nia talking to those ***(a school) kids? They are not my friends. Why is she talking to our enemies?
Me: I'm getting ghetto-er for being with more ghetto ppl. (Jordan dancing)
lol. Alright. I guess I have to sleep early tonight.Labels: forensics, personal
Saturday, February 6, 2010
IB Ball = so much fun! <3 yall girlz you are my best friendzz
some highlights of the night:
yay zach was back!!! =]
FIRE ALARM IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BALL
good music
my fav. girlz
rah rah ah ah ah romah romah-mah
gah gah oo la la want your bad romance
oo i think there was only one taylor swift song :P
OMG TOMORROW IS SHS TOURNAMENT!!!!! IM SUPA EXCITED
GET TO WEAR MY GFAN SHIRT!!! WE ARE LEGEND
Labels: forensics, friends, Gary, Lady Gaga, music, personal
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Sorry for the late post, but HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! =]
So..I've been watching this Korean drama called World's Within (그들이 사는 세상). :) It is really awesome! PLUS Hyun Bin and Song Hye Kyo <333. They are the cutest couple ever!! The drama is about this guy and girl who are both drama directors. Yeah..basically dramas in a drama. :) It is really cute cuz the two actually will be in a relationship at the beginning of the drama instead of eventually lives happily ever after at the end. Well...I mean it is more realistic than a lot of other dramas. :) Here's a poster.
Ahh..they are my fav. Korean actors!!! <333>
sry there are supposed to be some new year goals that i typed up but somehow they are gone! :'( sry im too lazy to write again hahaLabels: forensics, friends, Gary, personal, Suzhou
Friday, December 11, 2009
It looks like I haven't blogged in a while. And here's why
- History reading guides...well...ya know...I'm kinda foreign...and what's the point for a foreigner to know American history? JK.
- Biology! Reading biology takes a while, too. PLUS my never-function-when-doing-bio brain asks me to read for several times to digest it.
- Forensics tournaments! yay I'm actually good at something! =]
- YIG! =] I spoke up for many times at this year's conference. :) I'm glad that every year's YIG experience for me is increasing. And I have an amazing roommate + only us two are sharing one room. :D
- PLUS all the makeup work madness!
Well, I'm gonna stop complaining. Sometimes life does get a little bit rough, but there's always a good side of it, right? :) While making the slide show for our Hamlet play in English, I just realized how amazing Harry Potter soundtrack is!! Here are some that I want to share:
- Dumbledore's Farewell - HP & HBP
- Opening - HP & HBP
- Fireworks - HP & the Order of the Phoenix
- Double Trouble - HP & the Prisoner of Azkaban
- Hogwarts Hymn - HP & the Goblet of Fire
- Mischief Managed - HP & the Prisoner of Azkaban
And a lot more! =] <3 I used some of these in our slide show.
I got some new music for this blog. =] I had all good things come to an end by Nelly Furtado but now I added three other songs + changed the music player to an ipod touch. Haha. Hope yall like it. Although I spent more time on playing Mafia Wars + all these good tools of procrastination on facebook, I still found some new music recently. Lady Gaga is definitely one of my favorite right now. Her songs are always popular and one thing I really like them is that she could make them sound very 'popular'. Bad Romance is amazing. Teehee. I listened to Adam Lambert's new album and I only got the cover song in the end. It's called For Your Entertainment. It's pretty good.
I went to watch New Moon the weekend it came out! =] It was amazing. I thought it was a lot better than Twilight...a lot LESS awkward. The first one is just entirely a joke b/c almost ALL the conversations are terrible and in the end the Vitoria scene was very creepy. This time although Edward was ever-so-shiny, some conversations are improved I guess, and there are some actions going on! =D Talking about New Moon, it reminds me of Gossip Girl. OMG CHACE CRAWFORD! lol. I'm really surprised that most of my friends in China actually watch Gossip Girl. I knew this friend and he always talked to me about American TV shows and I was already kinda impressed. But now since I am using this Chinese facebook, I'm really amazed to see that a lot of updates are on gossip girl and the way those actresses dress up.
Whoops, I think that my mom wants me to do some homework + it's time to video chat w/ my cousin in Korea!
I miss you Gary. You should be proud. =]
Hey, for anyone reading the post because the title was attractive, I'm Team Jacob. :P
Labels: forensics, music, personal
Monday, September 14, 2009
I changed my layout to this very patriotic picture. It's post 9.11. Well, I was out of town on 9.11. What can you say?
Btw, "photo credit: Eileen Wang." I shot it at Vietnam War memorial.
Wake Forest was fun but tiresome. I don't have much to say about it. Congratulations Southside for winning 3rd in sweepstakes!
An interesting fact: people found it amusing listening to me talking on the phone in Chinese. Worthy burst out laughing when I said 'Taco Bell' while on the phone with my mom. Last night when we were stuck on highway 85 in NC, the entire car was dead quiet listening to me talking in Chinese. Languages are fun.
Some fun things happened at Wake:
I <3 our car ride...
- "my peanut"
- tay
- the story about a 12 yr old guy and a 14 yr old girl had a baby and decided to keep it. caroline: when the guy sends his child to kindergarten and the teacher asks are you his older brother? "no , im his dad."
- and much more <3
A judge in an HI round: are you six performing together?
Caroline's ballot: the role of drug addict is overdone in high schools.
I anti-bacteria-ed my arm cuz of too much hand sanitizer.
We played the animal game with Rachel + other ppl before oratory semis.
Duo final was so funny. :D
Sorry that's all I can remember right now. I feel that I better be committed to my makeup work now.
Labels: forensics, friends, personal
Friday, May 29, 2009
<3>
The banquet was amazing. There was so much love in there and altho it's very lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggg, but it was so powerful that everyone was moved. There were tears. It was just all that love that made me so happy afterwards.
SHS forensics team was definately part of my life for the past year. I enjoyed competing very very very very much. Getting trophies + defeating other competitors(mostly from other schools) altho were intense but I loved the feeling coming out of them. :D Hopefully after the Oratory Camp at George Mason University this summer will train me as a better OOer + help team out to win more sweepstake points. I believe I will beast. :)
Or maybe not. BUT I'm still just glad that I got 200 NFL points during my 2nd year in US. I still remember that funny judge at States who wrote 'Welcome to USA' on my ballot. Lol. From time to time, I might get upset for not getting as many trophy as I wanted. BUT it's that desire of getting more and more plus the reality of not satisfied giving us the power to do better. When my friend told me this is only my second year in US and what I've done was successful, I feel no regret for anything I did for Speech and Debate last year. I've done well. And I will do well next year. Speech and Debate is something I want to do and I want to do it well. Nothing is impossible.
Love from the coming 1o days
Labels: forensics, personal
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I just realized I haven't written any blog post since riverside tournament. So it's time for writing a new one.
My brain felt deadly blank about blogging for the past few weeks. I guess it's just too noisy inside, too much thinking about both useful and useless stuff. I would curled myself on the little couch and gaming on iminlikewithyou for 2 hours just to get one level up. And once I also felt full of accomplishment after getting all the javadox done for my science fair write up at 5:00 o'clock in the morning [IN BED!]. lawlz. That was awful. But I DID do it in my bed because I don't want to wake my dear mom downstairs. And the night before States I was working on my oratory for districts until 3:00 and both Reina and Gary were like AIM-ing me "Go to sleep". But I don't regret any of those time.
Arghh...and I passed out last Wednesday night so I skipped Thursday morning to do my calc ratio test hw. What a good IB kid!
I was seriously lack of sleep for a long time. And magically I got all of them made up last week. But apparently this week is another non-sleeping week. But I'll get used to it eventually, I believe. I'm just a sophomore. Next year will be more fun, right?
It snowed, very heavily. I remember I was doing my computer science project and I suddenly saw really heavy snow out of my windows. And I shouted that to Amit who lives in Greer. And half an hour later, it snowed over there, too. And then 3 days later, we were finally able to go to school again. I definately did not miss school at all. I was in a dreadful time with my dear computer science project. The thought of it almost killed me once appeared in my mind. But aren't we all proud of ourselves for staying up late and working on stuff that we liked and would like to get it done? I'm not that in love with computer science unlike the other four people in my class. But I'm still a good programmer, I think. I like to write a little program which could do something that is fun. And I found it's a lot easier to program once I got this huge more-than-3000-line program working. So I am looking for a summer internship of programming little applications for companies or websites. But unfortunately I don't think I found anyone who wants ME to contribute a bit of my brain cells...and get paid back. But I'm still looking, one should never give up what they want, right?
One of the main reasons for lack-of-sleep of this week, if my dear love forensics. I got so excited for districts before and a few days after States. But...I got scared and jumped backwards this week when I heard how it is going to work. I just don't feel like retelling it again. But it is really, really scary. But States was a pretty amazing experience for me. =] I'm glad I got into semi's + SOUTHSIDE IS THE STATE CHAMPION!!! I am so proud of us all. =]
WATCHMEN. I loved that movie. So intense. Who watches the watchmen? No one is perfect. And don't expect superheroes are going to save you. There's no ideal things in democracy, or, in the world. Watchmen need people to watch 'em, too.
*Sigh*...my brain is still deadly blank for blogging. I was talking to a friend while practising for oratory on Monday afternoon, and she told me she just loves writing English essays. But I, just always have no desire to write what so ever. Since I came to United States, I totally lost my desire of writing. Now I really want to know how I could write such beautiful poems when I was back in Suzhou. I could always write beautiful poems/ballads/sonnets/essays, although I always need to think about it for a while. But now I'm too busy with life instead of those meaningful and enjoyable moments. One live a life, not just on one's life, but one should work on the little details. I don't know why I changed. I am more like a science-loving person. I mean, I am just not good at humanity, although my feeling still changes and is still alive. It got frozen and drawn into the deepest part of my body, and apparently, was never going to wake up.
Isn't it a good time for change?
But I'm just not ready
For, Anything.Labels: forensics, personal, Suzhou
Saturday, February 21, 2009
I went 5-4-1-3 at my first tournament at Mauldin. It was a quite pleasant experience. I was really nervous in my first round tho. I met so many great orators in that round, such as Ebner, Emma, and Jackie. I was like...omg how could I ever place? And I was so amazed that I got a 3st in my third round. Haha. *I met that amazing judge who gave me a 1st at Southside tournament! I was in his impromptu room=]* What an interesting start. =]
In the same month, I went to Ashville. That was a really big tournament. I remember it was really cold up there. I did a lot better than my first time, too. I think I went 2-2-3-3. And I got 9th out of 22 competitors. And that's the only time I think I got fair judges so far. *psh...sc judges suck =P* And my fellow orator Nia was 7th. =[ But overall all Southsiders did a good job. =]
Then last week, after like 2 months, I went to my third tournament at TL Hanna. My ballots were so freaking stupid and that's the worst tournament I've ever been to. But I did have some good times tho. I went 5-2-1-3. And I got 9th. *I still think I at least got a 8th tho. that schoolfield kid couldn't have beat me. he's like the worst orator ive ever seen. =P* And I liked that 2nd and 1st. Haha. But the 5th and 3rd were so UNFAIR. Meh...
Today at 8 o-clock in the morning, I arrived at Riverside High for the first time in my life. There was sunshine and I went inside the building from the back door. Haha. I found our Southside forensicators and sit with them. Almost all the debators were doing dist. congress tho. And our dear coach gfan was doing congress too. We felt placing because we had less competitions AND our pieces got better. We had fun taking pictures and playing around between rounds. I got braces last week so it was kinda hard for me to talk/give a speech. But I did feel like placing before the award ceremony. And of course, Southside OWNED the tournament. =]]] I placed 5th in Original Oratory for Southside. I was soooo proud when I went up there. Mr coach hugged us and himself did really well in disc. congress. I always imagined to stand on the stage and get my own trophy. And I got it today, w/ my friend braces. We both worked hard.
Arhhh...I still didn't give a perfect speech. Hopefully I will do better at JL Mann next weekend.
WE ARE LEGEND.
yay shs orators: oryza, reina, and me =]
Labels: forensics, personal
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Oh, I love my team t-shirt.
Southside tournament was so much fun today! All Southsiders did an AMAZING job. :D I really loved our tournament. I believe we organized very well. And hopefully everyone had a great time.
I was timing in Impromptu. *eww* But I met some amazing impromtu-ers. :P And I met the judge who gave me a rank #1 in one of my rounds in my first tournament! Haha. He still remembers my Oratory. yay. And I guided judges && competitors to rooms between rounds. One thing that is amazing about timing Impromptu is that you can listen to some really amazing speakers. But there's one bad side too - you have to wait for a long time to have all those impromptu-ers coming to the room because most of them are either double-entries or triple-entries. And I watched one round of IDA. Haha. That was the most incredible event I've ever seen. :D Oh my. That was funny.
Our award ceremony was the BEST ever. I luuuuuuuuuuuuuuv all those videos. XD Those were funny. :D Haha. And can't wait for the pictures on fb! We really had fun after all rounds at the cafeteria. XDDD *if you know what we were doing :P* And I FINALLY met Rebecca! :DDD She's soooooooooooo cute. And she loves me! :D
Sigh don't have much time to write a long post. But we all had fun!
And I am going to wear our team shirt on Tuesday for spirit week! *or whatever day that is.*
*ooooooooooohhhhhhhhh...i didn't get a picture with gfan =[*Labels: forensics
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I feel bad distracting people while they are trying to prepare for emory.
I was on AIM and I know I've been talking for 3 days. I always have a lot to say when I am kind of mad or angry and can't stop talking. But there isn't a person to say 'shut up' in my face.
"whats up with you?" I said.
"debating."
"emory is very important for you i know that. im really sorry."
"it's ok."
I know sometimes I can get really annoying. Especially when I am in a bad/tres good mood.
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guess what?
i wrote those stuff above in computer science today and now i am going to another forensics tournament this weekend. so i was going to write more but i realized...westside is important for me. i should be practising.Labels: forensics, friends
Sunday, December 28, 2008
It's the end of the year...let's sum it up.
School:
umm...basically i'm satisfied on what i achieved in school:
- i got 5 As and 2 Bs (in ap comp sci and english i think?) at the end of the year in my classes while I got all As in my last quarter.
- i ranked 12 in my class in my first year in united states.
- i got a 4 in my AP exam.
- i am taking 3 APs this year.
- i have all As in those classes atm. :)
- and i started doing Original Oratory at the end of the year.
- i got a 1st in one of my rounds in my first tournament at mauldin high
- i got 9th out of 22 ppl in my second tournament in asheville
- i got 2 gold medals in clemson dec
other than those countable achievements, i made more friends - especially those freshies haha they are so cute! <---from talking to those freshies and FORENSICS. haha.
it feels good to be a sophomore. cuz finally you are not the youngest in the school. lulz. and this year's freshman are so nice. :) they all talk to me and...i just feel good to be a sophomore. haha. and i am looking forward to having stats class next year with some of them. :D and there are juniors and seniors older than us so we are not the 'oldest'. i have many classes with the juniors and those are fun too. :D I LOVE YOU JUNIORS. :D
and forensics is like one of the biggest thing in my life now. :) it is so much fun! :D you get to hang out with friends between rounds. and then it's so fun to achieve something in every round even every single minute in the tournaments. :) and practising before the tournaments is fun too. everyone gets very excited and works so hard. :) i love our team haha. WHOOHOO GO SHS!
Life:
life is ok. i dont think it improves a lot but at least my english improves a little bit right? and i socialized a bit more and that makes me happy too. :)
and i got a husband! i love my husband...tehe. :) he's such a nice freshman and i believe he loves me too. :PP and i got a wife too. <-- lmao if you dont know who that is, it's that amazing oryza astari girl. i guess we had an affair while doing oo together. lol idk. :PP
and i am using internet to study now. :PP apparently my mom doesnt like it but it helps me a lot. ;) i use aim to do groupwork with friends before tests and due dates. :P
and i got my permit. haha shouldnt forget that. driving is fun. :)
i guess that's it? i think i love 2008...so 2009 here we go......
Labels: forensics, friends, personal
